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There was a sentence, that I promised myself I would never utter.
Not to myself, nor to anyone else out loud, after I was diagnosed with breast cancer last year.
Before I state the sentence that’s never to be stated - humour me while I sprinkle some protective white light and barricade it below in plenty of brackets .... okee dokee ...
I have never said the sentence:
[[[[[[[[[ ‘I have breast cancer’. ]]]]]]]]]
I have never, ever used the present tense for it.
I just always found a way to say the exact truth, without dragging the C word into my current state.
The last thing I needed was a counter-productive mantra repeating in my head, or anyone else’s, KEEPING the OPPOSITE of what I wanted to see manifest.
I would carefully and simply say something like,
‘Last year I was diagnosed - with this and that’
Poof! It’s gone - the notch on the timeline is gone, receding away from my present moment.
The grace of time is letting that chapter - that bit of stimulus to work from - to sail safely into the past where it belongs.
It’s useful there, and I’m not going to go against the flow of where it’s supposed to be.
Let me also say, I was blessed with being given a great prognosis.
It was automatic for me to adopt this attitude, once my oncologist said it had not gone to the rest of my body and that we were ‘going for full cure’.
I grabbed onto those confident words, and bolted for that cure.
Something I learned at university, in my design school’s psychoanalysis class, was this notion that:
We don’t speak language, language speaks us.
Perhaps it’s arguable - nonetheless, we must be very careful about the power of our words, their alchemy for manifestation.
We must be mindful of what stories we keep re-writing for ourselves, and what past states we keep dragging into our Now, our present tense; our seat of power.
The past tense is rather useful. Use it.