Can you tell I’ve been lifting and rowing? 😂 Honestly though getting back in running shape is challenging after 2 months injured! Whenever I get an injury, and it’s not very often, I ask myself what can I do instead? In this case road biking, lifting weights, and rowing were all things I could easily do without pain. That being said, I probably gained 10 pounds during that time! Some of it was muscle, but not all of it. Running really does trim your body down in a way that no other exercise seems to do (at least for me personally). I was feeling really depressed about where I was at and my body while being unable to run. I had to consider why my body image was so tied to running and what I could do to accept myself regardless of my running or not. I can’t say that I succeeded in accepting myself, but I was able to become more aware of deeper negative patterns I’ve been feeding into that end up sabotaging my success and growth. Awareness is the first step to defeating our demons. Love the challenge of getting back to shape though 🙌 and I’m stronger than ever! I’ve been a bit sore with runs under <10 miles but my cardio is excellent. Cardio is the tough part, so I’m glad I didn’t lose much if any cardio. Wishing you all a wonderful Wednesday 🏃♀️ #runnersofinstagram#injury#ultrarunner#run#running#ultrarunning#ultramarathon#trailrunning#teamaltra ...
Throwback to a quick trip to Mexico immediately after finishing Javalina Jundred (100 miles). We tend to pack a lot into our race weekends! This trip was the perfect way to unwind for a couple of days, and the sunset boat tour was amazing...partially because I didn’t have to move for a couple hours. 😂
Fun fact: I was hobbling so badly that the resort staff kept asking if I needed medical attention. 😆 ...
- 2017 Ironman Chattanooga Swim Start
When I Think About Quitting (Abridged, 3 Minute Link in Bio)
Once a race starts, my mixed emotions of excitement and fear fall away. After that, I usually feel confident and focus on composure and execution.
Sometimes, I see doubt emerging. At something new, I may think I just don’t belong here. But I do. At the 2017 Ironman Chattanooga, I doubted my ability to get through the swim. I ended up going faster than my best case scenario. In a recent 5k, doubt was as simple as “You can’t hold this pace for another 15 minutes!” I could and did. When doubt appears, it’s not real. It’s just an inflection point. It’s the start of fight or flight. Prepare for it.
The game doesn’t really start until that first doubt appears. So, I welcome it. From there, the mind is triaging symptoms to determine what’s real and what is self-sabotage. It’s almost always self deception.
After doubt, my subconscious doubles down by proposing ways out of the pain. It’s fascinating to watch my mind looking for an exit. At Wasatch in 2018, I caught myself thinking that a good round of vomiting would get me out of the pain. I try to observe it, smile and keep moving. Imagine the finish.
In the end, it’s not about the result. It’s about the experience and iterating my process with lessons learned. I need to continually improve to allow the race to go on. The razor’s edge between quitting and enduring is where I like to be.